I rushed home
asap. I don't even remember if I turned off the moped. It's hazy how
I even got back. I could barely see straight. Everything was in fast
forward. I stumbled to my bathroom to look at myself in the mirror.
Everything comes to focus and my left eye is now grey. My temple is
banging and I have these huge tits sticking out. My head hurts so bad
I can't fix it. The only thing going through my head is I'm broken. I
got hit in the head and lost control. I was afraid that even if I
tried to make them go away, either it wouldn't work or it'd get
worse. My head is killing me, I need to sit down. How the fuck can a
guitar be that hard? They say not to go to sleep after being hit in
the head, I don't wanna die, but I'm so tired. I felt like I pedaled
the damn moped home. I grab my phone and call Nikki.
"Hey, Jax.
How you doin?" Nikki answered.
"I don't
know. This place was having a goth night and I was there with these
people I met at the mall and then there was this fight and..." I
started as I noticed my voice was not mine, but Kiva's.
"Whoa. Slow
down girl, talk to me with real sentences." Nikki replied.
"Sorry. I'm
still fucked up right now. I'm not Kiva, all the way anyway. A fight
broke out at this goth thing and I was beaned with a Stratocaster to
the temple and now my left eye is grey. My voice changed and my tits
popped out. The people I was with saw it. I couldn't even think how I
could get out of it." I said, upstairs looking for some sort of
aspirin.
"Yeah, I'm
sorry I couldn't see anyway of passing that off, sweetie. Wait, you
went as Jax and got hit with a guitar? Then your eye changed. I'm
lost." Nikki exclaimed.
"I think I
got knocked out because I woke up propped against the wall outside.
No telling how many people saw. I didn't even get to get a good fight
in. I think I got broken and I'm scared. So, I left as quick as I
can, don't know how I made it home, and I'm sleepy." I
explained.
"Don't go to
sleep, please. Stay awake. You might wanna stay awake for a good
while, knowing your condition. It fucked up your thing." Nikki
said.
"Stay on the
phone, with me." I told her.
"I miss you
baby. I think about you and worry about you. I'm afraid for you. I
still think about what you said. I could look past you being a
zerophiliac and to be my girl again, I'm not the selfish. I want Kiva
and Jax comes with it. It makes me uneasy because even as a girl
you're a guy. One day I won't give a fuck but I don't expect you to
wait for me." Nikki explained.
"Hey, guess
who I was hanging with? Julie Rush the pocket bike racer." Jax
mentioned.
"You didn't
hear a word I said, did you?" Nikki asked.
"Yeah, it
just popped in my head. There's no way we could wait for each other.
We'd need to be fated lovers. I'm still in love with you and I want
you back." I told her.
"I can see
why you're scared. You live your life like you do but there's still
the fear. The fear with us, and being outed. I can understand that
it's not like if everybody found out you were bi, much worse. I'm not
mad at you and haven't been mad. I get it. I can't be mad. I'm sorry
for being mad." Nikki explained.
We talked for I
don't know how long before she had to get off. It's like she has it
so easy. Her parents accept her and being a lesbian ain't really a
physical thing. I'm staring at the tv and I get a phone call from
Julie.
"Jax. I'm
sorry about what happened tonight. You were out for a while. We had
to drag you out." Julie stated.
"I'm confused
about tonight." I said.
"Did you make
it home okay?" Julie asked.
"I don't
know. Everything from starting the thing to making my way to the
bathroom was a fucking blur. Now I'm afraid to go to sleep." I
said.
"So, there's
not much about tonight that you could tell me?" Julie asked.
"No. Well I
have a fucking headache." I said.
"I can
understand about your eye. Sometimes a blow to the head can change
eye color. But your voice sounds like a girl. Why" Julie
berated.
"Uhh..."
I stalled.
"There was a
girl running around in the same thing you were wearing." Julie
mentioned.
"Wow." I
said.
"Jax, talk to
me. Tell me what happened to you. I can probably help. It's okay."
Julie assured.
"How could
you help?" I asked.
"Okay, here's
a secret. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. Jax, I'm a
zerophiliac. You are too, aren't you?" Julie demanded.
"You seen my
chest right?" I asked.
"Yep. And
your voice is still girly." Julie added.
"Yeah, I am.
Now what happens?" I wondered.
"I'm going to
help you. Once your headache goes away, you can put yourself where
you want. Personally, I don't switch much." Julie said. "How
long have you been awake?"
"Since for a
long time. I'm afraid to go to sleep and I thought I was broken."
I said.
"You'll be
okay. You're not broken. Your head controls it, you just sorta short
circuited, I guess. It's like going on four a.m. Get some sleep and
call me when you wake up." Julie said.
"Okay. I'm so
fuckin tired." I yawned.
"Well, got to
sleep." Julie said.
"Julie, do
you like me?" I asked.
"Ha. You
looked like you needed a friend. I think we could be close friends
now that I know you're a zerophiliac. Maybe we'll see what happens.
Good night, Jax." Julie said.
"Wait! Did
anybody see me?" Jax asked.
"No, we
covered you with our jackets before we got you out. How about we hang
out tomorrow, then we can talk. I'm tired, I was waiting for you to
call." Julie said.
"Okay. Sounds
good to me." I agreed.
"Good night,
friend." Julie said hanging up.
I looked at myself
in the mirror. Kiva's tits. My body. My head still hurting I managed
to get ready for bed and hope that she was right. I've had a hard
enough time these past few days. I turned on the radio and a fan on
high and went to sleep.
I woke up feeling
much better. My eye was still gray, but who cares. It doesn't bother
me. I'll just wear sunglasses. I throw my chonglers back on and a
hoodie, plus the boots from last night. I put my tits up and go
upstairs to eat. I call Julie to see what she's doin.
"Hey, Julie;
you awake yet?" I asked her.
"Jax! How you
doin guy?!" Julie yelled.
"Fuckin happy
goth." I said.
"What
happened to your head." Follie asked.
"What? Oh
that, I got hit with a guitar at the party last night when a fight
broke out." I said tipping my sunglasses. "Made my eye
gray."
"That your
mom?" Julie asked.
"Yeah, that’s
her." I said. "Yeah, but I'm good now. No different than
being kicked in the head at kappawea class."
"Who is
that?" Follie asked.
"This chick I
met at the mall the other day. She helped me last night at the party.
She's cool." I said.
"Well, you
sure you're okay? Let me see it." Follie said.
Julie is laughing
on the other end.
"Not funny,
Julie. So not funny." I said.
"I'm sorry.
Listening to you two is kinda funny." Julie laughed.
"So who's
this girl?" Follie asked.
"She's a
local celebrity. Renown for her pocket bike racing, she's Julie
Rush." I told her. "Hey Julie, I'm gonna race you when I
get my moped fixed up. I almost got all the parts for it."
"Sure thing
man, I'd love to whip your butt at the track." Julie exclaimed.
"You sure
you're okay?" Follie asked.
"Yeah, I'm
good." I said.
"You need to
go to the hospital," Follie exclaimed.
"I'm good, I
took asprin!" Jax shouted.
"Hahaha, you
wanna come over my house?" Julie asked.
"If you stop
laughing...," Jax said annoyed.
"Boy, you
could have brain damage." Follie said.
"Mamma, I'm
fine," Jax insisted. "Yes, I'll come over. Where do you
live?"
"I live in
Oakburg. I'll text you the way." Julie said.
"Why are you
goin over there, you don't know her." Follie stated.
"She's
cool!," hollered Jax. "Stop laughing at me."
He made his way to
the south end of Velocity and turned on Filmore. Looking for her
yellow house. When he pulled up, she was hiding on the other side of
the cars, smoking. She butted it, stuck it back and stood.
"Hey, welcome
to the headquarters, she greeted. "Pull that thing back here."
"I found a
set of mountain bike handlebars to put on it." Jax said
gleefully.
"C'mon in, my
dad is here." Julie said.
"Well, is
this the guy who took a guitar to the head?" David asked as they
walked in the kitchen.
"Yeah, he
took it like a champ though," said Julie.
"So you're
Jax? Man, this town is full of weird names. I'm David Rush, my ol
lady is Tanya."
"I was stoked
to meet her in the mall that day. A celebrity for real." Jax
exclaimed.
"Ah, I
wouldn't say celebrity. I'd be happy if we made it to the quarter
finals. So, my man, I heard your ride, what'cha riding?" David
asked.
"It's a
moped. A TFR Momentum," I answered.
"I may need
to dig around, but I think I have some moped parts. Either way, I'd
like to check it out." David proposed.
"Dad, we're
gonna go upstairs to talk," said Julie.
"Talk don't
mean kiss and play does it?" David asked.
"Dad."
Julie whined.
"Jax, I got
my eye on you kid." David said.
"No sir, I
wouldn't do that. I just got dumped not to long ago and..." Jax
started.
"Calm down
son," David laughed. "You seem like a good kid, from what I
hear."
"My dad can
be a jokester, I hope he didn't scare you," said Julie going
upstairs.
"Only a
little bit." Jax said.
So, this is my
room," She said shutting the door. "My bed, my posters, my
stuff and my bathroom."
She had a single
queen sized canopy bed in the corner of her room. It had black shear
curtains draped on it, looks like something her dad made. A small
bench was at the foot of the bed. A computer desk sat at the opposing
corner. Her television stand held a forty inch LED TV. and had a few
DVD's littering the front of it. There was a small bookshelf by her
window, it had a few bools of poetry and novels on it and a skull.
There were some posters for bands of death metal, goth rock, and the
like. One was a signed poster of Marilyn Manson. There was also a
chair(with clothes in it) and an ottoman in the other corner.
"My dad took
the second bedroom up here and made me a bathroom and bigger closet
That awesome or what, she said sitting a box fan in the window.
"So, did your
parents ever put you on medication for it too? I asked.
"Nope. My dad
figured no one would even notice until they changed my diaper more
than once. The only thing they did was keep me out of daycare."
Julie explained.
"I was on
medication till a few weeks ago. I stopped taking it because it
fucked with me. I found out from my sister that I was on the news and
everything when I started to change. They used me to make a medicine
that blocked it," I explained.
"Dude, that's
harsh. We can smoke now, she said taking the one from earlier out the
pack.
"It gets
worse. I talked to the doctor that 'discovered' me and the 'cure',
only to find out I was going through another puberty. Cause that
night after I stopped taking it, I changed. It hurt like a mother
fucker, and I was stuck that way for almost two weeks. I got a
girlfriend who was a lesbian and we dated for a short while, fell in
love and last time we where having sex, my dick came out. My puberty
was over. She freaked out, dumped me, and all that is only the best
parts," I told her.
"Dude I'm so
sorry. I saw the movie when I was nine and was afraid to have sex,
ever,because I thought that would happen." Julie said.
"There's been
so much going wrong with my life, for me to have been making it
better, I said.
"I'm usually
happy being a girl, I rarely ever even change." Julie stated.
"I learned to
enjoy it." Jax said.
"Can I see
her?" Julie asked.
“Should I get
naked...or...” Jax wondered.
“No, silly. Just
change. I mean, you met James already.” Julie said.
“Oh. Okay. Here
it goes...I hope.” Jax said changing to Kiva.
“Wow, you're
beautiful. I mean, I saw you last night, but it was pretty dark in
there. I can see why those guys were hitting on you. I mean, wow,”
exclaimed Julie. “What is your name?”
“Thanks, I've
never had someone tell me that before. Not even my ex. That gives me
a totally different feeling than being told how sexy I am or
whatever. I like that. I like that I was called beautiful with
sincerity. It's Kiva.” Kiva said.
“Yeah,
it's...you are gorgeous. It's not something as a guy you could feel.
It's hard to put it.” Julie said.
“I get it, don't
worry. It makes me feel good to hear that. I've heard many things
from many people, but I gotta stop before I cry.” Kiva said.
“Hey, it's okay.
We're girls here.” Julie spoke.
“I'm sorry. My
life hasn't been very much enjoyable. I haven't really been happy
with it so far.” Kiva said.
“Talk to me. I
thought I was the only one in the city. I want to help, talk. I
promise, nothing leaves this room.” Julie claimed.
“So far the only good thing that's happened is my mama let me move to the basement and its tricked out with sound proofing.” Kiva started.
“But why is
your life in so much turmoil, Kiva?” Julie wondered.
“I can't tell
my mama stopped taking my meds. My sister; the only person I could
talk to moved to new york and I was still in like a second puberty.
Then I was almost raped when I was walking.” Kiva explained.
She told Julie
her whole story up until the night at the party they were at. As they
sat n the bed, Julie hugged her. Kiva said how her medication left
her with a side effect of altering her body partly instead of only
one way or another.
“Wait. You have
been whoring yourself?” Julie asked.
“I know, its
bad. I won't lie, I needed the money- I need the money. I wanted to
fix up my moped and have money left over.” Kiva cried.
“You hafta stop
that. It's not safe. I know you can fight but, still.” Julie
exclaimed.
“I know. It
always seems like a good idea till it's over and I don't feel that
great.” Kiva cried.
“Get a job.”
Julie said.
“A job? I do
have money saved, I really don't need to spend...” Kiva murmured.
“Dry your eye's
and calm down,” said Julie handing her a tissue. “Just promise me
you'll stop doing that.”
“I said I would
stop after my moped is fixed up, but I promise I'll try very hard to
stop.” Kiva stated.
“So far, you've
been great. Please don't throw your life away. I want to have another
great friend. I can't be friends with you if you're dead or
whatever.” Julie explained.
“I'm gonna try
and stop. I promise. I fuckin swear it.” Kiva said.
“Why don't we
go down stairs, I have a feeling my dad has been tinkering with your
moped.” Julie said.
As they walked
downstairs, Tanya looked with utter confusion, trying to figure out
where this girl came from.
“Where did Jax
go? Who are you?” Tanya asked.
“Shit, dude you
forgot to change back.” Julie laughed.
“So, Your like
Julie?” Tanya asked.
“Well, no use
lying. I'm a ninja, well half ninja and disguised myself as their
shadows when they walked by.” Kiva claimed.
“Yes, he's a
zerophiliac. I found out last night at the goth night when he got hit
with a guitar.” Julie explained.
“I think David
is working on something in the garage.” Tanya said.
“See, I told
you he'd do something to it. Let's go see.” Julie said.
“What did your
daddy do to my moped?” asked Kiva walking around back.
“Who knows.”
Julie replied.
“Hey, girls!
Where's your friend Jax?” David asked.
“Hi, I'm Kiva.
What have you done to my Momentum?” Kiva greeted.
“Uh, I thought
this was that one boys bike, Julie.” David asked.
“It is, it's
hers too.” Julie replied.
“Where were you
this whole time?” David wondered.
“I...was here.”
Kiva replied.
They look at each
other and burst out laughing.
“Did I miss
something?” David asked.
“Dad, that's
Jax!” Julie laughed.
“Hmmm. Oh! So
you're a zerophiliac?” David exclaimed.
“Yeah, so let's
see what you did.” Kiva said.
“I thought
Julie was the only one in the city, that's awesome. So I converted it
a single swing arm with a built in CVT transmission.” David
explained.
“A CVT? It
already had a two speed manumatic...” Kiva said.
“I know. You
now have a two speed transmission backed by a CVT. Makes it faster.
It'll go longer before you would need to shift, making it faster.”
David explained.
“Uh, I mean,
how can I pay you back?” Kiva wondered.
“Nothing.
Friend of Julie's is a friend of mine. Just don't wreck it.” David
laughed.
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