Desiderata

No I didn't write it, Max Ehrmann did. What does it say to you?

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

Dreams: What could they really be?

I often consider dreaming to be waking up and the act of dreaming is either another life or sometimes in my opinion the preferred one. Much can be said for the way i dream. Not every dream but most of them are in one way reoccurring. I don't have actual reoccurring dreams, but dreams where I am in my minds version or alternate version of the city I live in. I'm constantly trying to find the best way to explain this. I live in Louisville, Ky, when I have one of these dreams of series, I'm going about my business in what my brain is perceiving as Louisville, KY. The Aegon Center may have a pyramid top versus the dome, or St. Matthews mall may be nearly the size of the Mall of America. The city is always this mental variant and I always know what part of town or place I am at. One dream I was in one of our projects(Beecher Terrace) and although looking nothing like it actually does, I knew I was there.

I enjoy these dreams, because it's like when I lay down to go to sleep, I'm actually waking up, possibly just daydreaming about what we percieve as our actual reality and that reality is actually my own. Perhaps they could be glimpses at past lives or a life to be lived next, or even where we will be in death. Dying just to live again somewhere else, religion aside, wouldn't it seem more feasible to die and end up in your dream world as your next paradigm versus the good or bad place of whatever religion you may have? Or your dreams could be showing you that good or bad place... reality you may go to next, which is why there is dreams and nightmares. If that is true, then is it the higher power or your own personal Karma that'll ultimately decide your placement? There are other planes of existence and I wouldn't mind staying in the one my mind show me the most. The only other dream I've had that wasn't exactly sequential to the rest is where I happened to be a woman, and that wasn't all that bad either, I was sexy as hell.

I wrote that here on C-D. I've had similar discussions with my friends before. My girlfriend has said she has had some vivid dreams, and that they were images of past and possibly future lives of hers. Another theory of time not being linear as well, but that is another post. I believe that dreams are windows that may open to an alternate reality or paradigm. That future life she saw was probably one of her alternative lifes in it's own dimension running concurrently with this paradigm we exist in. There is a thing called paradigm shift, there are things called retrogrades and crossing of realities. A simple dream, could be a transdimensional window providing a vivid picture of any past life, or currently active other lives one is living at the same time. Another example is she also told me is once before her and a few of our friends had the exact same dream, same time, same night. They talked about it, it seemed to be a post-apocalyptic world where they were soldiers of resistance, she was doing things there would be no chance of her doing in this reality. Everything added up, the dream I believe was semi lucid. Her conscience was partially transferred to her other self. Her body was on autopilot as she didn't need to question anything she was doing. Transdimensional portal to another place she and they currently exist.

There are multiple realities or "worlds," time is a forever thing, honestly a man-made thing, but as we perceive it- a thing that never ends, a vector, in fact. It is very much possible to live lifes at the same time because there at some point in time in any existence, there probably is or was, or will be a you there. We may never really understand dreams. They can be windows to other places, things of your deep sub-conscience...or our minds playing tricks on us.

Duece Ex Machina

I finally have something to write about! It's about the way things have been lately, fighting a struggling battle. I saw earlier how a buddy of mine on Facebook was wondering why he's hated, why does a large number of people hate him. Meanwhile, I've been off and on depressed and trying to figure out why my life is sorta shitty. I've thought about this for years. It's just destiny, per-programing. These are quotes from my comments to his post and maybe some of my status from the past few days.

Because it is your fate. destined and designed. I too fight against the programming of the machine. whether it is your actions or not, there are those who bare the strife of their localities as programed via the dues ex machina. We are designed to further implement this installed nature by how we act, think and generally carry ourselves in being who we are. thus in some way, we aren't really human in the sense most known. to normal people there is a silver lining in every grey cloud- not with us creatures. there are good things that happen only what was left from everyone else s. Then the coding error is fixed. Do you get it now?

This was my first post  in correspondence, you see there is the System and always has been. We are all programs and this planet is merely a sever to the machine. Almost like a cross between Second Life and The Sims, or the Matrix. Everything we know, think or assume has been already sorted through, planned and placed. Read on.

Our tampering with the programing is a catch 22. what was and is to be is set. Its system guides time in a linear fashion, programing cause and effect. the coding errors and other anomalies could be considered karma. the reason no good deed goes unpunished, those that are seen as evil get no retribution or it is severely delayed. As we fight our programing it is akin to trying to get a laserdisc player to play a record.

This was a reply to another friend of his. You can try and defy the programming but it is inevitable. You are programed like everyone else and we all react together. Who you are and will become is already determined. If you are like me, you were intended to bare the local strife, in the fashion Meg Griffin does on Family Guy. She's like the poster child for people like me and my buddy. To elaborate on coding errors and anomalies; things like birth defects, spontaneous  combustion, albinoism, are errors in code or virus, or corruption. Anomalies are also things like ghost. Ghost are old data(dead people), and sometimes corrupted data such as ghost that were never people to begin with, probably axed ideas by the system such as Domovoi or Will'O the Wisp. Strange things, such as the claimed jackolope, or weird feats such as wind blowing a hat from one persons head to another, are anomalies. The criminals the run crime sprees and don't get caught till much later and probably too late, the guy who saves the girl from being smashed by a rather large speeding vehicle, to only dies the same fate. Those are things that like most would say shouldn't have happened. But a breach in the system is the fault. The system is massive, thus doesn't run perfect and can't effectively monitor everything efficiently.

The Gods. All of them(hear that Christians and similar faiths) were put here by the machine, as administrators of sorts. These system administrators acted as message board moderators. Designed based on region. The past few decades, I assume as it evolved they were no longer required in the aspect they used to be. Then there are things that were intended but not fully coded, mythical creatures are one example of this.

we are in control of what we perceive as our destiny. yes we pick our own choices, it does not inherently guide us. It runs many variable scenarios better known as the fork in the road. each path leads to another fork.

  I actually explained this in the beginning, everything we think and assume has already been set out. I hope that explains it better. This is why life is how it is, now my actual feelings and such on the matter is a whole nother entry.

Finally another post

It's been forever since I have posted on here. So I finally get to and I forget what exactly I had intended to post about. So despite what I said I was going to do(focus on the other stories before starting) I starting typing book two of Zerophilia. I also have joined the Alt. Sex. Stories. Registry. I'm just waiting for the confirmation. I also joined Stories On Line and have two stories submitted. Two chapters anyway. I also had to restart my book Views Of A Bisexual. I don't know if I told yall about that book or not, but when I had internet I started it and it was saved on my computer-which is having problems turning on. I should have saved it to my zip drive. Now I've got another one started. I hope to get that one published.

Whats else should I bring up...? I can't think of anything really. I can always make another post. Well I did start back writing poetry. Here's one;

My Love For You:

What is it but love we seek. Unconditional

heart-filled or basic lust. The raw desire

for your body

Jax Rhapsody with optional heart on

sleeve. Was a hetero-male; decided

bisided, bisexual, poly-amorous. Could

be a slut- a free range lover.

Romantic lust is all I got. Shallow love

for you. No ill-fated lovers, no meant to

be. Given the slightest chance we can

make what you perceive as love.

Kiss, caress and hold you afterward.

Just remember don't say those sweet

words. As they fall on deaf ears they

could ruin the great thing we had, because

from deep within my heart; I love you so

shallowly.

So i was going to bring something up after I typed that, and I forgot. I guess I can wrap this post up for now.