“You
really don't have a problem with me?” Stella asked.
“Why would I
have a problem?” Jax asked.
“Well, my
appearance?” Stella stated.
“No I told
you. I'm the guy, that can be a girl at a whim. If anything, I'm the
bigger freak. You just seem androgynous. It's like, it would be wrong
for me to play you off as a girl. That's like some in-the-closet type
shit. I thought you were a beautiful girl, then I found out you were
a guy. It's really enticing. There's no words for how I feel. To have
a boyfriend so dedicated.” Jax explained.
“Boyfriend? I
thought we were just friends or something?” Stella asked.
“I want you to
be my boyfriend. I was attracted to you as a girl, but I fell for you
when I found out you wasn't.” Jax explained.
“You sure, you
want to do that? “ Stella asked confusedly.
“Yeah, Stella.
Even if I hafta prove to you that it's you and not your appearance. I
swear to god, how you carry on your mama's memory is awesome, how you
dress like her and carry your self. Of all the people that I've met
in my life, you are the purest. Even I'm no great person.” Jax
said.
“You helped
me. You can't be that bad. You accept me for me. How bad are you?”
Stella questioned.
“I will tell
you after I come out of the store. More like when we get somewhere to
sit.” Said Jax as he approached the store on the corner of fourth
and Lugnut.
A moment later
he walks out with a small black bag. Stella meets him half way as he
walks back to his moped. He wraps his arms around Jax and kisses him.
A long slow kiss.
“Stella...”
Jax started.
“I had to
think of what could happen with us. You are adamant on how you want
to live your life. I am not going to stop how I live. I don't mind
hanging out with Kiva, you don't have to stay one way or another. If
you are positive on how you want to live, I can't help but grow to
love you. The choices we make are hard. We aren't normal.” Stella
explained.
“Do you want
to be my boyfriend?” Jax asked.
“I do. I want
to be friends first. See where we go.” Stella agreed.
Where should we
go from here, asked Jax.
“I just
thought I told you.” Stella answered.
“I don't mean
emotionally through our relationship. I mean in a
traverse-the-city-to-a-destination, where should we go.” Jax
stated.
How about your
house? I mean, you've seen mine, suggested Stella.
“I guess. Just
don't say anything about me and my lil disorder. She doesn't have the
slightest clue I don't take my meds. She doesn't know I'm bi either.”
Jax explained.
“I thought you
weren't in the closet?” Stella asked.
“I'm not. She's
just the only person I figure doesn't need to know, especially after
as a kid I hated the queer lifestyle.” Jax responded.
“You know, at
some point, you'll hafta tell her.” Stella said.
“My home life
is somewhat easy-going. She can find out when I'm on my own,” said
Jax, starting the moped. “Off we go!”
“Pretty much
told you about me, what about you?” Stella asked.
“Well the
basic boy stuff. Cars, collecting things, I guess. I like porn and
after my rebirth, my personality went askew. Extra hormones bombarded
my body, new feelings and other bullshit. So I really like going to
the mall and shopping. I like those girly manga, like Fruits Baskets.
Now that I say it out loud, it sounds stereotypically corny and
whatever. I spent a good amount of time in the drivers seat of the
opposite sex, I started doing things, going against instincts.” Jax
said.
“I know how
that is. I was never like a rough, tough guy. My dad tried and
sometimes still does to make me a real man. He always made me work on
his cars with him and do yard work. It got worse when my mom died.
After a while, I started to live her life through mine. Or something.
Everybody thinks I'm crazy. Okay, it is crazy. It helped me get over
it, I just like being a woman. I can rebuild a carb or somewhat tune
an EFI system and I could care less.” Stella spoke.
“So what's
with the guitar? How do you pull those riffs like an electric?” Jax
asked.
“My mom taught
me, I hope to start a band one day.” Stella said.
They pull up in
the backyard. As Jax locks the gate, Stella states, “You don't live
far from downtown.”
“My mama's
still at work so we can just head straight to my lair,” said Jax.
Jax unlocks the
padlock to the basement, Stella stands in the darkness as he walks
over and turns on the light. Looking around at the set up. Jax smiles
as he watches him look around.
“Dude, this is
awesome. This is like the Bat-cave or something.” Stella exclaims.
“Me and my
uncle did a lot of work. There's sound proofing everywhere and I have
closets for Kiva's clothes and a finished bathroom. So, Stella, no
one can hear you scream.” Jax said.
“Ha ha,”
laughed Stella sarcastically.
“Can I have a
kiss, Stella?” Jax asked.
“What makes you
a bad boy?” Stella asked.
“So far, only
two things have been remotely good, so through my strife, I hope you
stay here.” Jax started.
“Just, get it
out, Jax.” Stella said.
“Okay, when I
needed more money, I pretty much whored myself. I've been nearly beat
up twice and managed to knock them out and rob them. I talked to a
friend of mine and she said I should stop. I've applied for a job, I
have enough money saved to I guess break even with the crappy hours
and paycheck.” Jax explained.
“That doesn't
make you a bad person-it makes you a slut. Well, sluts are bad people
too... anyway I'm not going to associate myself with people who do
that.” Stella said.
“That's been
my ongoing luck. I've pretty much lost my sister who was helping me
when this all started. My first girlfriend, whom I had to be a girl
to get, left me after whatever twisted period slash puberty ended,
that I had. The one good person in my life, my friends is doing weird
things to me. I'm tired. I'm going to leave this town and start
over,” Jax said tearing up. “I meet you and through my past
actions, shooed you away.”
“Jax, Jax, no.
Baby, no. Keep what you are doing. You're not shooing me away. I
think you try and do good. I think that you are going at this alone
and found more needs. I struggle. You think my dad likes this? He
always tries to throw my clothes away. Throw away my make up. The
school board won't let me be me. Just do like you promised.” Stella
said before he leaned in and kissed him on the lips.
“Please, don't
play with me. I'm at fucking wits end, with this shit.” Jax stated.
“I'm not going
to leave you. I need to ask about your friend, what did they do?”
Stella wondered.
“She felt and
played in my crotch while we were ridding my bike. Wanted to feel me
change down there. I didn't know what to do. She claims to not have a
crush on me, that we are friends. I asked if she wanted to see it and
she was like hell naw. She said something about how she doesn't care
for sex but wants to have sex and something about caressing my body.
I just found an excuse to drop her off. She kissed me goodbye. I
don't know.” Jax said.
“Talk to her.
Ask her why is she a nutcase. Maybe there is something there you
don't see.” Stella offered.
“She said we
were just friends. And so far it was awesome, she kinda helped me
after the fight that broke out in the club and I was knocked out. If
there was something, I don't want to go making that choice between
you and her. I'll stay alone before I hafta pick.” Jax said.
“Maybe she
just wants to try something and wants to see what happens. Who
knows.” Stella replied.
“I think I'll
ask her friends about it first.” Jax stated.
“Well, I know
what I want to do...” started Stella.
“A lil girl on
girl action?” Jax said changing to Kiva.
Stella burst out
laughing.
“Now I know,
you are not laughing at me,” said Kiva snapping her fingers. “I
am sexy!”
“Yeah, you
are. Sorry, it was funny. Ooo, why don't I give you a make over! I
mean instead of dressing in black all the time, why don't we go buy
you some other clothes and some make up and...” Stella started.
“I don't
always dress goth. I have other clothes. I don't wear make up, I
never thought of myself as that girly. I mean I am still a guy.”
Kiva said.
“I guess you
can still look girly and still be one of the guys. But to find out we
gotta go to the mall.” Stella instructed.
“Shit, let's
go. After I change clothes.” Kiva said.
She walked over
to one of the closets and picked out a pair of capri's. Stella walked
over and grabbed a mini-skirt with a flower print and an orange
spaghetti strap. He looked at her shoes and grabbed a pair of black
converse chucks. He walked over to her dresser and tossed her the
bracelet. Stella sat as she changed clothes. She dropped her boxers
and grabbed a pair of boy-shorts, Stella has seen a glance at Kiva's
vagina as she changed clothes as if he wasn't there. Stella got up
and pulled Kiva's hair up in a pony-tail.
“That is the
first time, I've ever seen a vagina!” Stella said like a anxious
school girl.
“And you want
to dive right in it. Sorry, we're friends.” Kiva said.
“Uhh...ewww!”
Stella replied.
“Oh so that
wasn't funny...okay, now that you're done dressing me up like a doll,
are you ready to go? Kiva asked.
“Actually it
was fun dressing you up. Kiva can be my dress up doll.” Stella
joked.
“Now that's
creepy.” Kiva stated.
“Hey, I gotta
find a use for you.” Stella laughed.
“Don't make me
hurt you. Let's go.” Kiva said.
As they walk in
the mall, Kiva ask; “Why are we here again?”
“So we can
make a woman out of you.” Stella said.
“You have
money?” Kiva asked.
“Yeah, my mom
left me money. Whatever she did as a guy, got her a lot of money. I
don't like to use it, but when someone is throwing away most of your
clothes...” Stella said.
“I thought we
were just gonna hang?” Kiva asked.
“I told you, I
was going to get you some makeup and I need some panties. He threw
all mine away. Do you know what these jeans can do to your privates
without that barrier?” Stella said.
“Sorry, I
don't. Where are we going?” Kiva asked.
“To Lazarus,
to get you some makeup,” Stella said pulling her in the store.
“But, I don't
want to mommy!” Kiva yelled.
“What is wrong
with you?” Stella asked.
“I don't know.
In a good mood I guess.” Kiva replied.
“Okay, I'm
going to match up with what you are wearing. Sit there and look
pretty,” Stella instructs as he collects a few products.
Stella walks
back over with foundation, lipstick, eyeliner pencils, et cetera. He
applies a light foundation, and picks two eyeliner pencils.
“Why are you
doing this for me?” Kiva asked.
“It's fun.
It's something we can do.” Stella said.
“We've got a
lot to learn about each other.” Kiva said.
“Be still,”
said Stella as he started the eyeliner. Starting with black eyeliner,
carrying the lines to a point almost like cat-eye's or anime eye's.
Following that with a small amount of tangerine eye shadow. Just
enough to see it there. Then he applied some burnt orange lipstick.
“What do you
think?” Stella asked.
“Wow.
Stella...I...thank you.” Kiva mustered.
“I tried. I'm
happy you like it.” Stella said.
“So, like now
what?” Kiva asked.
“We shop!”
Stella said.
“Don't forget,
we did come here on a bare bones moped.” Kiva said.
So, after they
consolidated everything they bought in to three backpacks they bought
at Journey. They went to eat and not to far away was Julie and her
friends.
“Hey, Stella.
There's my friend Julie over there.” Kiva said.
“The nutcase?”
Stella asked.
“Stop it.”
Kiva said.
Kiva waved at
her. Frankie pointed and said something, allowing Julie to lower her
head and stare real hard before walking over.
“Do I know
you?” Julie asked with concern.
“You don't
recognize me at all, Julie?” Kiva asked.
“No. Who are
you girls?” Julies asked.
“Kiva!” Kiva
yelled.
Julies face lit
up, “Kiva?! Girl I didn't even know that was you! You look good.”
“Thanks.
Stella did it to me. Oh, this is my friend Stella.” Kiva said.
“Stella, nice
to meet you. I'm Julie and that's Frankie and Samantha over there. It
was only a few hours ago, you were all goth. Now you're like, ah
dunno a prissy hipster or something.” Julie said.
“I'm still
goth, you loon.” Kiva laughed.
“So, is this
what you went home for?” Julie asked.
“Not really.
We kinda fell in to each other. I was on my way home and went through
Stillwall. Ended up fighting these guys for Stella.” Kiva said.
“Yeah, they
were gonna break my guitar and beat me up. Then he came and it was
awesome.” Stella said.
“I know right,
I saw him fight three guys right here in the food court. He kicked
ass!” Julie said.
“Need more
soda, hold on.” Kiva said walking off.
“Julie, I
gotta ask you something.” Stella said.
“Yeah,
anything.” Julie said.
“You kinda
weirded him out. Why did you mess with him earlier?” Stella asked.
“He told you
that?” Julie asked. “I don't know why. I couldn't help myself.
What else did he say?”
“Not much. He
was looking for advice, I guess.” Stella said.
“I've had that
on my mind all day.” Julie said.
“He wants to
get to know me better, so I can be his boyfriend. If you like him or
something, please tell him. I don't want anymore pain in his life. I
wouldn't mind having friends either.” Stella explained.
“You're not a
girl?” Julie asked.
“No. I guess
you could say I'm the poster child for a mama's boy. When she died, I
started to live my life like her and it helped me some what get over
her death. My dad hates it.” Stella explained.
“That's sweet.
It's like the best tribute I've ever heard of. There's something
about you, I don't know what it is though.” Julie said.
“Yeah, he said
the same thing.” Stella said.
At the other
table, Kiva is chatting up with Sam and Frankie.
“So, earlier
today I went over Julies house and we went for a ride on my moped and
was like feelin me up. Any insight on that?” Kiva asked.
“Wow. Dude.
She claims not to like you so...” Sam started.
“I know. It's
not like she's never seen a zerophiliac before or know how we work.”
Kiva said.
“She sometimes
has a weird way of expressing herself, dude.” Frankie said.
“Yeah but it
was like she wanted to feel on me and out of utter confusion I asked
if she wanted to see and she blew it off. She kissed me and told me
how she wanted my body” Kiva said.
“She did me
like that and I told her if we're just friends, then don't.” Sam
replied.
“She might
like you, talk to her.” Frankie said.
“My life has
turned around. All this; friends, womanhood, love life, is new.”
Kiva stated.
“Kiva, you
look good. I've yet to see you in anything but black.” Frankie
said.
“Sexy. Damn
sexy.” Sam said.
“Yeah, Stella
gave me a make over.” Kiva replied.
“You look
beautiful. Really.” Sam said.
“That's got to
be the most positive thing I've heard you say.” Kiva laughed.
“So, are you
two gonna be an item or what?” Julie asked as her and Stella walked
up.
“I don't
know. We just met.” Stella said.
“Hey, if you
two don't want her, I do.” Sam said.
“Stop being a
slutty goth!” Julie laughed.
“I think we
can work, I hope.” Kiva said.
“As long as
he doesn't take you away from the dark side,” laughed Julie, giving
Kiva a hug.
“You think we
can work?” Kiva asked.
“All we can do
is try.” Stella said.
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